I had a really long day at the office. I barely settled in when I decided to call him.
I dialed his number countless times and got no response. Where could he be? Knowing me and my restlessness, I called him every 15 minutes till I got tired and my overactive imagination came alive.
I’ve had issues trusting Tunde for a while now. He went from being this really disciplined and well behaved man to being very care-free and overly flirty with women. People really do change, probably because of the new town and environment he works in. Honestly, I don’t know.
Tunde came into my life and made me a better person. I saw how disciplined and straightforward he was, and I craved to be like him, he restored my hope in men of this world. I tried everyday to be better because of him, yea yea…don’t give me that look, I know I should have wanted to be better for ME but yea, that’s how it started.
Over time I made progress, I started shaping myself to be the woman I wanted to be, but there was a problem, my dear Tunde was changing. I can’t go into all the details now, but I think I caused him to change. That is another story I just might write on another day.
On one of the few occasions we saw…before I continue, let me sound this loud and clear Ladies! DO NOT go through your man’s phone! You just ‘might’ get heartbroken if you’re unlucky *sigh* anyway, back to my story. On one of the few occasions we saw, enveloped by boredom, I went through his phone, I saw things I wasn’t ready to see, things I didn’t believe I was seeing. A bitter pill to swallow, but it was staring right at me. My sweet love Tunde, my sweet loyal Tunde had somehow turned a new leaf, unfortunately it was the wrong side of the leaf. I was immediately filled with fear, disappointment, anger, insecurity and most of all, sadness.
We somehow managed to go through the next few days as peacefully and as lovingly as possible. In case you are wondering if I confronted him, yes I confronted him. You want to know what he said abi? Don’t be an amebo! Must you know everything?
See ehn, I love Tunde, and I always will, even if we don’t stay together parting only by death, he will always have a place in my heart. I am sure some of you are wondering why I didn’t dump his ass, well, na una sabi! I know the man I met, and I know this behavior is temporary. Men like Tunde are rare, I ain’t about to give up on him just like that. You want to know more about Tunde? Maybe i’ll tell you, if you can convince me to write more.
Reluctantly, I departed his city a few days later, maybe I was expecting too much…but I somehow needed an assurance from him that he was going to be faithful to me, that I had nothing to worry about. Maybe I wanted to hear it everyday, I don’t know…but it just seemed like he didn’t try, or didn’t try hard enough. At some point, it seemed like he forgot about the whole thing…forgot that, well, he was supposed to help me trust him again. I have a very dangerous mind, I think a lot…and his lack of…interest or effort, did things to me, it messed with my mind a lot… I was unhappy.
Somehow we made it to this day without properly tackling the trust issues…trust issues that may be from both sides, but that is another story that I may tell another day. It is possible to rebuild trust in a relationship, I know it is! So I won’t give up, not yet anyway.
Oh, by the way, you can call me The Addicted, and I’m addicted to love, life and laughter…and yes, Tunde (sue me!)