As I type this, i’m actually worried that this post won’t live up to what you guys expect it to be because the first part of this series was actually pretty dope, if I do say so myself 😏 (read it HERE if you missed it) let’s see what this part of the series will bring.
Do the insecurities ever fully go away? I think they still rear their ugly heads every once in a while just to taunt you, but once you have the strength to look them in the eye and tell them “I’m not scared of you anymore bruh! I don’t care what you do” you have gained strength, you have grown! Way to go!
Now i’m not saying i’m the most confident of the lot, but I have definitely made amazing progress. Some mornings I strut around feeling fly and thinking “damn girl, why so fine?!” on those days I take a lot of selfies. Do you have those kind of days? You should! Those kind of days are really great days. Days when you are in touch with yourself and you appreciate yourself for who you are, flaws and all.
Has my derriere made an appearance now? Who cares? I love it whether it’s small or big. The truth is, I stopped caring about what it looked like, it got really exhausting. Worrying over one’s insecurities is actually really exhausting. If you can’t do anything about it at the moment, why not accept it and move on to the things you can affect?
Honestly I wouldn’t be the woman I am if I wasn’t the girl I was. If I didn’t go through the hurt and self doubt, I wouldn’t have blossomed into this pretty butterfly that I am now 🦋.
Someone once said that as soon as a woman starts talking about self love and wanting to focus on herself and her relationship with God that it means she has either been heart broken or just ended a relationship, to be honest this is not far from the truth and I can totally relate with this.
It is quite sad actually. Sad that it takes heart break for a woman to realize that the only human’s love she can fully rely on is hers, sad that it takes a break up for her to know that she has to focus on improving herself. Sad because it takes being hurt for her to realize she has to always put herself first.
The woman I am is excited to meet the woman i’m becoming, aren’t you???